As you know I’ve kind of taken a break from writing. I’ve been journaling and such, but I haven’t been documenting my moments publicly. I’ve been enjoying time out of the spotlight and away from the pressure to create for an audience. It’s been nice.
Lately though I’ve felt the pull to begin again, to share my thoughts and aspects of my life with others but to be honest, I’ve been kind of burdened by the question “what makes me worthy”?
If you are someone who also creates, whether in the form of writing, photography, music or another art form I would assume that you’ve at some point asked yourself some variation of this same question. “Why is my life important to others?” “What about me is so special that I feel I deserve a special platform to talk about the mundanities of my existence?”. My very simple answer to myself, would be, it’s not and absolutely nothing.
I don’t say this to degrade myself, but i’m simply being honest. I don’t think there’s necessarily anything particular about me that makes me stand out from other writers or from others on the internet. Yea, I’ve had some unique experiences, but I don’t really believe they’re anymore unique than those experienced by you or those around you. So what makes me “worthy” of this space on the internet? Literally, nothing, nothing at all.
When I had this thought initially, it was discouraging. I mean, I was coming to terms with the fact that there was nothing specifically *special about me as a writer. I wasn’t an expert blogger who could give tips and tricks to help you grow your blog in a few months. I wasn’t living a scandalous life with captivating stories to update you on each week, and I wasn’t traveling the world and going on adventures in idyllic wanderlust fashion. I’m just a woman in a small city, phasing out of young adulthood who likes to write and share pieces of my life (maybe at times too much of my life) with strangers on the internet. As I ruminated on this, I had another thought; the people I enjoy consuming content from, whether reading their blogs, watching their YouTube channels, reading their tweets or engaging with on instagram are kinda like me.
They are normal people, living relatively normal lives…and I love them. I tell my husband all of the time that I consider these people “friends”. I care about their ups and downs, celebrate their accomplishments and grieve with their losses… and maybe that makes me weird but I think I relate more to the “mundane” pieces of life from others than the extremely spectacular. I of course enjoy a good travel or van life vlog, but regularly I find myself really connecting with those who aren’t necessarily “worthy” of this public platform.
Because of that little realization I felt more at peace. Theres nothing wrong with the regular day to day stuff.
That enouraged me, but I didn’t want it to stop there. I want to encourage those of you who may be on the fence about blogging or creating a podcast or starting YouTube or getting involved on social media or just sharing you whatever you do. If your hesitation to share or discouragement comes from you thinking you don’t have anything to offer (as mine does from time to time), remember that you don’t have to offer anything. Most people who connect with you are going to connect with you for you. Have fun with it.
When it comes down to it, if you were given the desire to create, whether it’s educational content for a subject you’re interested in, showcasing your art, or just broadcasting the happenings of your everyday, do it. There’s no one in your way but you and just as there are people who are here and who continually read my content (thank you by the way!) there will be people out there who resonate with you too.