Music is my love language. It really is. My earliest memories are bookmarked by songs my father played up the stairs from his old school stereo to wake my brother and I up on Saturday mornings and music that filled my home on Sundays as my mom cleaned the house from top to bottom. The hazy memories that float around in my subconscious are made clear at the sound of a familiar melody, reassuring me of things that once were. When I meet a person who doesn’t play music in the car, or in their home, or even  someone who doesn’t sing to their children or encourage them to express their joy through dance I am genuinely startled, because for me, music is my second language.

At the moment, Spotify is my best companion. I love the way it stores my music, suggests playlists and genres and I especially adore the weekly collection of new music it presents me with at the beginning of each week like clockwork. This makes it easy for a sometimes music snob like myself to venture out of my comfortable snobbery and take a peek into a new genre or explore the melodies of a new-to-me artist.

Some of my favorite introductions have been to artists like Gallant, CASS, JMSN, and my current obsession Sabrina Claudio. I  discovered Sabrina Claudio when I was recommended her song, Confidently Lost. I was obsessed from her first line; “I’m alone but I’m not lonely”. So simple yet, so profound. When she sang those words I felt a sense of justification for everything that I  am. A person who for the most part is alone, but who rarely feels lonely. Totally comfortable in this stage of self discovery and allowing this period of being alone to further shape me into who I’m going to be. The rest of the lyrics are just as beautifully crafted. Paired with her melancholic yet strong vocals, you can almost feel her responding to everyone who looks at her with those sad eyes, feeling pity for her perceived loneliness. She tells them that she is more than okay, she is changing and embracing this transformation, and that she knows she looks like she doesn’t know where she’s going or what she’s doing, but she’s okay with that. She doesn’t want to be rescued, she’s not in trouble. She’s not hiding, she’s here, she’s confident and she’s comfortable.

Put your feet up and take a moment and listen to Confidently lost by Sabrina Claudio (Link)

I’m alone but I’m not lonely

Comfortably indulging

And trying to get to know me

I’m just an outline of what I used to be

Constantly evolving

Steadily revolving

I am confidently lost

I don’t need you to find me

You don’t define me

I am confidently lost

I don’t need you to find me

‘Cause I’m not hiding

Anything

Anything

Made up of hope and meditation

Love, imagination

Water my creations

Baby it’s amazing

All the days I’m facing

Nothing seems to phase me

‘Cause I am confidently lost

I don’t need you to find me

‘Cause I’m not hiding

Anything

Anything

Anything

Anything

Thinking about where I’ve gone

Where I’m going

And I wouldn’t change it for the world

Thinking about where I’m from

If I belong there

But I wouldn’t change it for anything

(Oh I wouldn’t change it for anything)

Anything

Anything

Anything

 

 

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